Anything Is Possible


As I reflect back to just a year ago in my own life today on where I was, what I was doing, and just who I was, the difference is like night and day. My thinking is different, my personal goals are different, my relationships with myself and people are different.

Some of the changes that have taken place have taken a more gradual slow approach, while others were like a leap. I have lost some things and yet I have gained so much. The point is, I didn’t stay stuck or stagnant.

So many times in my life, I found myself being sucked up into a state of depression, that I was blinded by what could be possible. I even went so far in 2013 that I attempted to take my own life. My own reasoning was that I thought nothing was going to get better and my children were all going to grow up and move away and I was going to be left alone.

I honestly could not see the other side of the coin! That is the way depression hinders your thoughts and any type of vision of the future. You are literally blinded. It is the saddest state of being.

My hopes today is that no matter who you are, where you are, and what you are doing, your able to take some kind of hold to these words-never give up! Never give up on the fact that anything is possible!

Words cannot describe just how grateful I am for that day that I was saved! I had no blood pressure, honestly, it was a miracle, I am here today! I have a new outlook on life, I am a stronger person than I was back then, and though I still get depressed, I hang on until my thoughts change for the better.

If I can do it, so can you! I was one of the lucky ones, and you can be one too!

Thank you for reading,

Glad to be here!

Just thoughts

Bridgette~

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If Whiskey Was A Woman



If whiskey was a woman

I’d knock her out today

Nothing like watching you drink

As I lay in bed and pray.

I think about who you use to be

and where you are now

the painful moments of sobriety

gave way to death somehow.

I thought it was a choice

and how I hated that to be

but now the years have passed

and I see now what I couldn’t see.

Whiskey was the darkness

the chains that bound your soul

I thought you loved her more

until your story was wrote and sold.


Just thoughts in poetry form.

Bridgette~

In memory of a husband who passed away years ago from alcoholism. I use to hate him for it. I also have a mother who is an alcoholic as well as a brother who is an addict. Their are so many addictions out there. There are so many people we all know who are addicts. It took me a long time to realize it is not their choice.

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Throwing the Stones


I don’t know about you personally, but as for me, the ridiculousness in this world is at its massive heights. Seems like every time I turn on the tv or social media someone somewhere is getting canceled out. Getting canceled out for saying the wrong thing, getting fired for what they said in the past, choosing to agree with someone, choosing not to agree with someone, the list goes on and on.

All I can think of at this moment, is who are we, to cancel those people out? Ruin their lives, end their careers, shut them out of everything imaginable and unimaginable just because we find it offensive, really? Whatever happened to freedom of speech here in America?

How can we throw the stones at someone for such? Are we guilt and sin free ourselves? I will be the first to tell you, that I am most definitely not. This is not about canceling at all, it is about power and control at its finest.

Lets show you who we cancelled out today! Lets show you what’s not acceptable and tag your it!

It’s sad but true, this is no new thing. This power war has been going on for years. The media is just simply highlighting it to show you who ultimately has control! Its another form of bullying, don’t you think? Call it what you want, social exclusion, cancelling out, etc.

Who are they or we, to even throw the stones?

It’s despicable if you ask me.

Just thoughts!

Bridgette~

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Divided We Stand Divided We Fall


I was a complete frantic mess yesterday. The early morning hours were spent surfing the net, and reading all the political madness in the world. It’s enough to drive anybody’s anxiety levels up if you ask me. My usual routine of getting to work and getting things accomplished was ultimately delayed because I felt so unsafe in our modern world. However, in the midst of it all, I made a startling revelation.

Depending upon which political party you choose, you will see supposedly factual information that is very persuasive. How can their be two truths, for example- to the 2020 election results? Is their not, just one truth? It is to no surprise to me, that everyone is divided.

This leads me to another conclusion. Politics is perhaps a game of persuasion, and whomever has the best props associated with your core values usually wins your vote. We the people will most likely, never really know the real truth. Why? Because unless we are the ones actually counting the votes ourselves we can not prove anything.

So with this in mind, I finally decided yesterday, to turn the politics off. There was nothing that I could really do as an individual so therefore, I went about my day.

Today I choose not to worry about something I have no control over. What will be, will be. We are all different and unique and we don’t have to hate each other over our differences.

I hope today you find some peace in your world as I seek out mine.

Have a wonderful day! 🙂

Just thoughts

Bridgette~

I am blessed to be here and if my work is helping you in anyway all contributions are welcomed! Thank you in advance. 

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Speechless


I can’t seem to bring myself to write much today. My heart is full of the feeling of being UNSAFE in my own country. As the polling for Biden drops to 38% approval rate, I can’t even fathom who these 38% even are. Our finances, our safety, our God given rights, are no longer secure, neither are our children.

Everybody is talking but I see nothing being done.

Why are people conforming to the control? Are there more of them than us?

Top tech companies have been tracking our children. Are you okay with that? With just a tap, Google can seek out your key word search. Are you okay with that?

We have been lied to, and everything is a game. Is the truth a lie, is a lie the truth, or are both somewhere in the middle?

Is your neighbor really your friend, or perhaps, a really good acting enemy? I’ve personally experienced that one! What about you?

It is not just America, its everywhere….

Just thoughts

Bridgette~

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In Between My Time


In between my time, is a phrase I have coined, extending back to the days when I often felt lost on the inside, usually after some type of loss. This loss was usually related to a change in what was the norm, to something, that was going to be a new way of life, a new type of living without what was. I was no longer in the old place surrounded by comfort, I was not in the new place feeling comfort, I was somewhere in between.

When I mention the word comfort, the meaning does not necessarily reflect that, because you can be in an abusive relationship, an unstable home, etc., for a length of time, and anything other than that, can cause you to feel uncomfortable. Another words, if you have grown use to living in chaos, then being ejected into a peaceful atmosphere, can be overwhelming to your senses.

My first recollection of this feeling of in between my time, or lostness, was when my father divorced my first stepmother after having been married to her for almost 10 years. My step mother had a son who was only a year and a half older than me, and a handicapped daughter who was a year and half younger than me. I had been the middle child during the relationship for years, and now I was going to be slung back into a life of being the only child. I was completely overwhelmed at the feeling of being alone. Nothing felt right, no one was the same, my world was now completely different.

I know I am not alone in this. This period of our lives, and the feeling of being uncomfortable in our own skin happens when we change jobs, careers, change relationships, move to another location, change schools, get a divorce, lose a pet, lose a family member, etc. Nothing feels right, or comfortable, and the length of time we are in this place, varies for each of us.

I find this time in my life, the most difficult of times. But yet, here I am today, I am alive, so therefore, I made it through. I made it through because I pushed through the uncomfortableness, and that uncomfortableness, began to be comfortable in itself. I adapted.

What we do with ourselves during this time, is crucial to our being. For some they can’t handle it, and they drift into negative living with bad choices. For others, they take more positive actions. Even the smallest step towards positivity can change our lives towards the better. I learned this philosophy while attending a twelve step program for my depression. The phrase, “Keep coming back, it works if you work it,” really does work, if you keep coming back! The reason you keep coming back is because eventually, it will begin to feel comfortable, like a habit.

My hope today, is that no matter where you find yourself at, just know that if you keep taking steps however so little towards where you want to be in life, you will get there eventually. Keep doing what’s right for you, and everything will fall into its place. The uncomfortableness will take on a new shape and create a new beginning. So keep coming back, and work it, and it will work for you! 🙂

Just thoughts

Bridgette~

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The Power of Being Offset


Their are often times in my life that I find myself in a troubling space whether it be physical, mental, emotional, or spiritual. You know what I am talking about, the kind of space in the mind where everything gets all jumbled up and mixed up due to perhaps some bad choices or some type of neglect. For me its like a dirty house, neglected, clothes dropped on the floor, dishes piled in the sink, dust built up on the book shelf.

How I arrived at this point usually is almost shear lack of motivation, or like I mentioned above, bad choices. All these things in my life that eventually get put off, or done incorrectly, or piled up in the corner, eventually spill over into this sense of overwhelming impending disarray of emotional crisis. This awful dreadfulness like some kind of unplugged computer, eventually drains me.

Then it happens.

Something about being offset eventually snaps me like a rubber band out of the overwhelming chaos. I wake up and start cleaning house. The feeling of being offset motivates me to reset! I notice my focus is no longer hazy or lazy per say, and I am able to recognize with a clearer picture where I went wrong.

I find myself wanting to do better, be better, feel better. Be all I can be. It’s like knowing your mother is coming to visit in a matter of hours, so you start putting everything in its place, dust the bookshelf off, wash the dishes, and clean out the toilet bowl.

When all this cleaning house is done, I find something amazing has happened to my internal self, and that instead of feeling rotten to the core, I am refreshed and come out smelling like a rose. The energy that was once lost, is now recharged. Everything is feeling amazingly good, and well.

The sun is now shining bright in my life, the birds are chirping, and a sense of peace is now fulfilling. My observation of this whole process leads me to this one conclusion about life. If there was no darkness in our lives, then perhaps we would never truly appreciate the light. If we never made mistakes or bad choices then perhaps we would never truly grow as people.

Today, I can truly say, that I am thankful for the mistakes in my life, the bad choices I’ve made, the laziness that motivated me, to be better than I was perhaps even yesterday. Perhaps all these messed up things and bad feelings, have put me on a much clearer path to a brighter place. Even more so, even though I have those horrible days of depression there is this one thing I hold onto, THIS TOO SHALL PASS!

Thank you for reading,

Just thoughts

Bridgette~

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Freedom From Fear


I lived in fear all my childhood life. Fear of being hit, fear of dropping my fork at the dinner table and being back handed, fear of what might come next. Living in fear was not really living at all. Fear was something I could not see, but I could definitely feel it in my whole being, everyday. The amount of fear that laid inside me, caused my heart to weaken under the stress over the years.

Today, I see so many people in the world, living in fear as well. The fear of catching the Corona Virus, fear of losing their jobs, their health insurance, their livelihood. Living in fear of the known and the unknown is almost a constant in our lives. Fear can be almost paralyzing, and it can also be stimulating.

Living in fear as a child, I was almost paralyzed to live. Sure I had a few good moments, but looking back, I really did not enjoy much of anything to speak of. It wasn’t until I was sixteen years old, when the overwhelming fear of living in fear built up inside me, and began to unravel. Suddenly I realized I had two choices. To live or to die.

The physical and emotional pain of fear was so intense that dying seemed to be the best option. For years, I just wanted to die. I honestly thought that this was a way of life because I had nothing in my life to compare it to. Little did I know that living was just on the other side of my fears.

To this day I do not know what caused me to get up and stand up for myself one day, except for the fact that my mind somehow told myself that if I was going to die anyway, I might as well give it a good fight. So I did. And something amazingly happened.

Call it a flash of light, a spark of hope, a new unfolding freedom. Suddenly all this fear that I had inside me about dying changed and created a new path to the living. The fear immediately shrunk and dissipated. My whole life now lay in front of me, like a tree extending its branches to reach the sunlight. I could breathe, something so simple that I had been doing all along, but yet now was no longer heavy it was now appeasing.

I still have some fears today. Some of my fears are real and some of them are just fears that I create. Some of my fears are still paralyzing as I felt not to long ago being at the top of a ladder. I could not move, literally. Standing there with my hands gripped so tightly to the sides of this ladder, and crying, all I could envision was me falling. Once again, I considered my options. To live or to die. So with a deep breath, I began to move, and I managed to get down safely to my freedom.

My hope today, is that we can all examine our fears and begin to move. Nothing is more paralyzing than staying stuck in fear and not really living. We do have choices if we just recognize them. Beauty is in life, and so therefore, my choice today is to live.

I want to live, don’t you?

I am a survivor!

Just thoughts

Bridgette~

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We The People


If a political party in government is NOT for their own people, then they should not be in control. Period. Who are these people that support them? In my own opinion, that is the same as not caring about your own home and caring more about your neighbors home.

If a political party opens the border to their own country allowing the unvaccinated no background check in its own country, without regard to its own people while enforcing its own people to be vaccinated to work, travel, etc., something is wrong! And, might I mention, all the while, their own homes owned by the government including the White House, are surrounded by fences and security, what is it saying to its own people? Who supports this political party?

What is the truth about anything for that matter. Will we ever know? We live in a world where the truth is based on which ever political party you listen to, right? Which ever political party has the most props, coercion techniques, money, power, enforcement, psychological warfare, wins the game, right? Give that a thought!

As for myself, I have NEVER in my lifetime, felt more unsecure, unprotected, ashamed, about my own country than I do today. The 2020 election damaged this countries whole thought process on the voting system. Why even vote, if your votes do not matter? Why vote if the results can be manipulated to serve a political parties agenda?

If you do not believe in your own countries foundation in which is was built upon, then take your agenda and go find yourself a nice little island and create your own country! Get out of mine! There has got to be plenty of people like me out there who enjoys their freedom and doesn’t care to have their God given civil liberties taken away by anyone!

Governments are totally out of control. This has been going on behind the scenes for years. Mega corporations are totally out of control as well. The biggest problem of this all, is that we feed them! Yes, we do! We buy their phones, we fill their websites, we provide them personal data, we are stupid people. What gives a social network company the right to ask me about my health? What gives a social network company the right to ask me if I vote? What’s even sicker is the government trying to pass a bill that will make the banks report to them your transactions, deposits, and withdrawals. Talk about the government trying to control us! It’s all happening folks!

Wake up people! This is not just an American issue, this is a mankind issue!

Just thoughts!

Bridgette~

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Who Are We Talking To?


I remember the days when you could call a company, business, corporation, hospital, office, etc., and get a live person. Although some of those phone calls might have not went well, at least we knew who was on the other end of the line, a live person. Now days, making the exact type of phone call is like a game of roulette, you never know if you are talking to a live person or a robot, i.e. bot.

I did not realize how bad and common this situation really was until a few weeks ago when my husband called a local company and he put his phone on speaker. Over hearing the conversation, I could hear my husband making jokes with the so called representative and I noticed that his jokes were left with a pause in the conversation in which he was then redirected to his question.

After several attempts to get his point across, the so called representative finally got what he was saying. After the phone call ended my husband hung up his phone and said out loud, “thanks bot!” Say what? To me his conversation appeared to be with a live person. Nope. My husband said “If it were a live person there wouldn’t have been the pauses, and the so called representative would have showed some type of personality. The robot, or bot, would have figured out what I was saying from the beginning.”

Why are companies choosing to do this? I do not see any type of gain. Does it really save time? This type of communication only brings me frustration. In my own opinion, it only defeats its purpose and desensitizes the whole situation. I feel it makes the companies appear small, uncaring, and honestly it does not help out with the shortage of jobs out their for people who need employment.

We are living in a sad world today. Just with this one issue alone, we are wiping out our own civilization. I applaud those companies who still have live representatives. I would like to thank you for your sincerity and for keeping things real.

Just thoughts

Bridgette~

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