I am a person of research, that is for certain I am sure. A very inquisitive person, for some reason, perhaps its the star I was born under. This morning, as I was reviewing my Facebook page, I came across a cry for help in a certain group that I am a member of, someone stating, “what’s the point in being alive, if nothing is ever going to change?”
Honestly, this sent a type of chill down my spine, as I remember a certain day in my own life, back in July of 2013, where I had ultimately reached this point, and did the unthinkable! I swallowed down, 45 Tylenol Pm pills. It was a very dark day, but as you can see, I survived. I survived because someone was looking after me, yes, I do believe their is a God.
The point being, this person’s language sent a reminder to myself, of where I once was in my own thinking, and still to this day, still struggle with. For some anonymous reason, I found myself curious as to when the word, “depression,” was first introduced, so I googled it. As I scrolled down the articles, I came across this one, “People with depression are likely to say certain words,” written by Mohammed Al-Mosaiwi on November 29, 2018, found on the QZ.com.
Did you know, that people suffering from depression changes just about everything that defines them? From the types of words they speak, to the style of language they use to express themselves, and that computers can now, identify depressed people. Interesting, I never knew.
Depressed people tend to use an excessive amount of words that express negative emotions, specifically, negative adjectives and adverbs, please see the article. Also included is the overuse of specific first person words, such as me, myself, and I. There seems to be a less connected vocabulary associated with others, and a more connected vocab on themselves. This is some good to know information because groups that seem to be more successful with improving the lives of others, such as support groups, ie, alcoholic anonymous, gamblers anonymous, specifically focus on, “getting out of oneself,” and helping others.
Another framework for identifying depressed people is the style of language that they use to express themselves. The type of style I am referring to is the use of absolutes and magnitudes of probabilities, ie, always, nothing, or completely, and never; again see the article. Take for instance, the above mentioned statement, NOTHING, AND EVER. When I was in treatment after my suicide attempt, one of the doctors mentioned to my family, that I struggled with seeing, “the other side of the coin. ”
I can absolutely, see all this, in my own personal life, and language. The day I did the “ultimate thing,” I believed my life was NEVER going to get better! Nothing was EVER going to change! Perhaps, this is why during some of my counseling sessions throughout my own life, counselors have suggested I post signs up that said, “I AM BEAUTIFUL, I AM WORTHY,” ect. I think you can understand my point. When you grow up in negative atmospheres, and certain negative words are associated with your whole being, you learn to attach these to yourself and your own self perception. Retraining your brain with new words, I have found, is a difficult lifetime process. Oops! You see the word, difficult, that I chose to use. Geeze.
Anyway, I hope for those of you like me, suffering with depression, you take this information and do your own research, who knows what you might find. I, personally will use this as a reference of understanding, my own behavior, and the language that I use during my depressive moods.
I am blessed to be here and if my work is helping you in anyway all contributions are welcomed! Thank you in advance.
Thank you for your encouragement and support!